Be a darling, pass the salt and pepper of life

It's crazy in here. The grinning crocodile is grinning at you trying to say "no way, no how, not a lizard's chance in hell".

My dear friends (if there are any out there), I have very often been taught a bunch of bullshit by a lot of people. People including my parents, my friends, teachers, people who feel it's their "duty" to educate other people...

And it doesn't take a lot of hitting your head against the wall until you realise you've got a headache and should stop.

This will probably not make sense in the morning. Although it already is morning and it should make better sense now than any other time. But everything is still just a matter of perspective and opinion, isn't it? You can distort your reality the way you want and glue it over your eyes and tell people "look, this is the real reality".

What is the real reality anyway? No, we're not in the Matrix here, but we're still living our own artificial lives, slaves to our own misconceptions, preconceptions, religion, hypocrisy and illusions. Oh, and tv.

Seriously, has anyone seen the grinning crocodile grinning at them saying "no way, no how, not a lizard's chance in hell" to all those real realities?

The "today" issue

Today I realised something while looking at photos of my old classmates. I'm stuck in time, looking like I'm 16 years old, expecting everyone to never change as well. I'm sure it would be hard for me to accept change if it hit me like a train.

The trouble with "today" is that I keep thinking about yesterday. "Yesterday" was good, it was cool, I had friends, people read my poems and my dad was still around. I was also the social failure and ugly duckling who had no clue what a little girl should do. But I still showed everyone at school... I showed them, heh!

Today is a very funny thing, like the rabbit in Alice's dream. Blink and you miss it. Spend your whole life chasing after it, only to find out it had always been there with you.

Such insane nonsense, right? Now you're looking forward to getting off work, meeting the love of your life, getting married, being successful, etc etc etc. Hi, have you met my future self? I'm going to be awesome, just wait!

It's not that hard to keep looking forward to things, but it can be very addictive. Like chocolate. Or ice-cream. Or better yet, chocolate ice-cream. Too bad it makes you fat and some people will even notice it and laugh at you. Ha ha.

Personally, I really enjoy the today. It's nice and it's fun and it's all home-made. Would you care for a glass?

 

Carpe diem.